November 10th, 2004
|05:04 pm - Yeah|
So, I'm not dead, as everyone is sure that I am. Tomorrow is my 19th birthday. What a bullsh*t birthday. You don't do shit because you're not old enough to drink and you already became legal. So what the f*ck am I supposed to do now?
I know I'm failing 1 class. I know (or I'm at least 95% sure) that I'm passing 4 classes. I'm questionable about 1. And then I still haven't officially dropped 2 classes that I need to because they know I'm dropping it's just the question of officially doing it. So I don't think I should be too nervous.
I didn't go to class on Monday. I didn't go to class today. I am DEFINITELY going to class tomorrow. Maybe. I hope.
I HAVE TO GO TO CLASS ON FRIDAY.
I HAVE TO GO TO CLASS NEXT WEEK.
I'm so bad at this college thing right now, but I hate class, all I want to do is NOT go, I will do anything but go to class: exercise, write papers for the classes I'm not going to, clean my room, spend quality time with my boy sleeping in bed (which is where he is right now).
We suspect we may have mono, we sleep all the time, sometimes for more than 12 hours on end.
I have no idea where all of that came from. Now that we're all done being depressed, how's everyone else? I'm good for the most part, I am changing my major for spring semester, and I've been talking with some of my friends here about summer plans already. I think I'm going up to Connecticut for like 5 or 6 days (maybe less) to see Dave Matthews in Hartford and of course I'll be with Aaron the rest of the time. There's some talk that we might go out to Providence, RI too to see DMB and stay with Matt out there. But only for 4 days at the most because no one could handle that much Matt all the time. And then everyone will come visit me at "the shore" for a week, some were even talking about renting a house for a month because everyone loves it near me. Plus that would just be awesome.
I'm going home on Friday. I'm excited. I'm getting something from Tiffany's at 12:00 tonight. But I don't know what it is, or even what jewelry it is, all I know is that it's from Tiffany's. That was really not necessary, but it's greatly appreciated.
Happy Birthday to me (well, tomorrow)
Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: Some rap sh*t in the next room over
October 4th, 2004
|08:49 pm - Maybe I should update...|
How awesome is quixotic?? I have no idea what it means, but the word looks cool.
Anyway, so yeah, I'm in college, and it's cool. I'll make a list of awesome things
The guys downstairs
Aaron and him letting me live with him
Rodney D Block
Finding bitches like me in band
Pasta in the dining hall
Not eating ice cream
People say that I'm nice, and can't imagine how I was a bitch in high school
Being from the shore, it's such a nice thing to be proud of
Already having credit so I don't have to go to class every MWF at 9:00
But then there's things here that bring me down....
BAND TAKING UP MY FUCKING WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!!!!
BITCHY BAND STAFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How I need to practice and I can never find my way over there
When the dining hall has no good dinner and I'm reduced to a sandwich and some cereal or pizza
How my computer doesn't have the internet
So what's goin on with everyone else? Write me cause I'd really like to know
I love ... everything here. I'm in such a good mood. So I'm gunna go be happy
Current Mood: quixotic
Current Music: Lewis Black/DMB
September 9th, 2004
|08:22 pm - Such a nondescriptive emotion, right?|
But I am. I'm happy. I still don't feel like updating, I'm gunna play guitar for a little bit BUT I need some opinions on this...
Here's the situation:
I was sitting in Italian with one person to the left of me and two people to the right. The teacher said pair up so the two to the right to me paired off, and I was just gunna turn the the guy next to me when he taps the guy in FRONT of him (who doesn't have a partner) and says hey, you need a partner? So I figure ok no big deal, we'll be a group of three. BUT THEN HE GOT UP TO THE ROW IN FRONT OF ME!!! HOW FUCKING RUDE IS THAT!?
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Light Up My Room - Barenaked Ladies
August 29th, 2004
|01:23 am - Ok I'll Update|
Just not now
And I'm in Delaware
And I'm cool
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Flake - Jack Johnson
July 28th, 2004
|06:21 pm - Ugh|
Ok a lot's been goin on, and I honestly can't sit down and clear out my head long enough to write it down. I'll probably update little by little, but until then.
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: So Damn Lucky - Dave Matthews
June 14th, 2004
|11:52 pm - Not Fair...|
Everyone around me is getting wasted. And I'm not. Because I'm the good girl that's gunna sit back, help people when they're in need. I go with Jim so he can get stoned and drunk, I drive him home, like a good friend. I answer his phone when Chip and Heather call wanting to do something, I have to tell them what's goin on. They stop by, Chip tries to get him up, but he's passed out. I call Rob, he's wasted over Ryan Brewer's. I know Tyler's out somewhere partying. So I go home. IT'S ONLY 11:00 my Saturday night is ruined. Sunday was work. It really actually put me in a good mood to work. Kate, Kevin, Adam, Michele, and Jay. Plus Donna, Emma, and Harry, but we didn't really see them. Clams and cheesesteaks. Kevin is such a laid back kid, but he works hard. He's a lotta fun!
Last night I didn't end up doing anything. I was maybe going to go over to Kate's to hot tub and drink, but we decided against it. I just chilled and played cards with my mom. Didn't have to get up early or anything, just didn't have the energy to go out. It was my first full day of work!!
Today I woke up at like 10. Renaissance luncheon at noon. Afterwards I took Tyler with me to run some errands, dropped off my tux finally for dry cleaning!!! I also stopped at the bank, cashed some checks and deposited some. I'M RICH, BITCH!! Then instead of taking pics with Hub (she went and interviewed instead), we played some pool and ping pong, then baseball and GTA on PS2. I talked to Jim, he said lets hang out, then changed plans again. Tyler went to go get drunk. Kate's drunk at Deanna's. I was supposed to go, but here I am, being the good girl again. What can I say? I fit into that role too well. I have a few exceptions (lets say, sexual?) but overall, I'm the good girl. I don't smoke. I rarely drink. I don't do a lotta illegal shit. I'm almost always on time for my curfew, I'm almost always where I say I am. And when I do want to cut loose and live a little, my parents always find a nitch and catch me so I can't. I stayed here and watched Sweet Home Alabama and Signs. Played more canasta with my mom. She got re-hooked.
People just tick me off. Summer's almost here, and I'm already missing out on the party. I'm so scared I'm going to miss so much when I'm in Italy. Missing the fourth is SUCH a big deal, we have such a big party here that whole week, and there are so many people that come that I'm going to miss, and not see until after my first year of college is done.
I got music in the mail today for auditioning for wind ensemble for UDel. It looks ok, a few runs but they look chromatic/scaletone so hey maybe I'll audition.
I'm listening to Lisa talk about this guy Ricky, and it sounds so much like what's going on with me and Jim. Except stronger cause she's known Ricky for about a month. I don't know what I'm expecting with Jim, or what I want with him. I guess it's kinda cool, we can act like we're together when we're together, but when we're not it's all open. Even when I'm with him, he comments on other girls, tries to get numbers, but always comes back and kisses me. He was talking to me asking if he looked gay (his shoes were really ugly) and I was like if we go out, people are gunna think you're my gay best friend. And he says then I'll just do this *long passionate kiss followed by an ass grab* and say does that look gay to you?? He's got a good sense of humor.
I have to stop thinking about him. Just force myself. Or else I'll turn out like Lisa (not that that's a bad thing, but she is so hurt right now)
Maybe if I sleep thing's will get better...
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Outside - Aaron Lewis and Fred Durst
|06:03 pm - This=Creepy|
Well, I dunno about the brilliance, but the other two...
|How to make a JerseySurfGirl|
5 parts competetiveness
1 part brilliance
1 part leadership
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of emotion and enjoy!
June 12th, 2004
|10:54 am - Seaside Baby|
Hung out with Jim and A.J. last night at Seaside. I had one of the best nights I've had in a while. He is seriously the sweetest guy ever, he treats me awesome. And we have great late night conversations that make me late for coming home. But he won me an ugly dog, which made me sad.
I really like this guy. And it's frustrating. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Seafood festival today in Belmar. Goin with Traci and probably Joe.
Thursday night was interesting. Played running bases and volleyball. Girls' track vs. Boys' track teams in volleyball. We ended up playing 5 on 5, and the girls lost both times, and we kept our bet. Except for Kim Stagg. Lucky bitch.
I'm pretty much done with school. I have to take one more final, and it's going to be impossible, I don't plan on passing. English was soooooooo easy it wasn't even funny. Good thing no one that has Larkin reads this. Well, no one really reads this anyway, so who cares.
I need to be funnier. I read Dave's blurty, and what he talks about is just so random and so funny, I wish I could be creative like that. Oh well.
I felt like I needed to update for some reason. No one really updates anymore, and it doesn't give me anything to read. So maybe if I update then other people will too...
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Something's Coming - West Side Story
June 3rd, 2004
|07:21 pm - LAUREN GRACE|
So my sister finally had her baby. She's real cute. My sister did good, she was happy to finally have it all over with and stop being pregnant.
Prom was ok, it was short, a little anti-climactic. Didn't really do much afterward, got pulled over though, no ticket.
Hung out with Chip and his girlfriend and one of his friends. Went to Manasquan fireworks. Sunday I went over Tyler's. Things have been really good and bad with us, we're fighting over stupid shit. He says he's over me but I don't think he is. I've been hanging out with other guys, and the more I do it the more I realize I like being single. Have fun for a while. See how things go.
Today was just an overall good day. Just one of those feelings that's good, and nothing ruined it. I even got to skip 9th period again. Latin test wasn't that bad, yearbooks today.
It's really starting to hit me that graduation's almost here. 5 more days of school before finals, and I only have to take two. But I'm gunna be working from Saturday-Sunday (a week and then some) but YAY!!! Money!!!
Current Mood: ditzy
Current Music: Simpsons is on, but Jimmy's in my head